The Overs

I am over wanting commitment.

It is not longer something that I want, but something that I NEED.

It's like I am racing towards being forty years old so I can have other forty year old friends who will actually commit to doing fun things.

I am in the process of trying to start a writing group, so that we can all help workshop each others work and perhaps make our movies together.

No one can commit.

I know all too well it is not about having time, but making time. So people make some time if you want to really invest,create and direct your future...come on people!

So now I am trying to pick a restaurant from the New York Mag website, so that I can break up with my boyfriend, who can't seem to make time for me, in a place that I won't ever want to go back to.

How does one choose a restaurant they never want to go back to? A place where they can plan to create bad memories?

Knowing my luck I will end up on set there in a few weeks shooting a break-up scene for 14 hours in the restaurant that I really broke up in.

Maybe this is all a product of my own hyper-planning issues. I plan creativity and I am in the process of actively planning my break up.


Does everyone do this? OR do I need to put my "life by the hour" excel spreadsheets away?


I am over no commitment. I am over "no time." I want to be over my planning insanity.
Just really fucking over it.


What would the world be like if I stopped planning my life...and trying to plan everyone else's?